slumming it

Went out last night with a highschool friend to a place in Sorrento. Everyone was snorting rock and I tried some, then during the initial headrush bought half a pill. It was fun for a while, but then I started talking way too much crap and couldn't shut up and got very paranoid. And was smoking a fair bit and drinking heaps of piss that I just couldn't feel.
Then I got dropped home at 8 this morning and ma was outside and she saw me and she knows I was into some Class A shit last night. So my ratings at home are gonna drop for this, it sucks. The thing is, I don't want to do rock again, it's expensive, it fucks your brain up and it's really unhealthy. I'm still kind of high right now and I feel like shit.
Am going to the gym in an hour or so to try and sweat some of it out before work tonight, where I know I'm gonna get put on bar, and I am going to do another crap job, what with my brain being all at below 50% and that. I really hope I can speed up the metabolisis as the gym obviously must do, to be frank I don't enjoy this feeling very much. A fair bit of it is knowing that I'm busted, but I think I'm a bit disappointed with myself for doing it. Meth is neurotoxic for fuck's sake.

The upside is it might well keep me off anything, pot etc, for quite some time. And I met a bunch of very nice people, who if I didn't piss off too much last night I will be seeing again, hither and thither, as the summer progresses.